quinta-feira, 21 de julho de 2022

 minha mãe e energia 

e todas as mulheres da minha familia são muito fortes 

e voce também 

sempre que voce se sentir sozinha voce tem a sua escrita 

o jeito que voce imagina a si mesma 

voce sempre esteve sozinha 

carregando as suas decisões 

todas as mulheres da minha familia foram e são fortes 

voce tem a si mesma 

no fim do dia quem vai te colocar pra dormir vai ser voce mesma 

quem vai amparar seu choro vai ser voce mesma 

voce tem medo que isso aconteça com seu pai 

no fim do dia voce vai se amparar 

tomar o seu banho 

fazer a sua sopa 

cuidar de voce mesma 

pentear o seu cabelo 

te dar boa noite para dormir 

voce eh fucking forte 

voce sempre escreveu isso quando estava tendo crise de pânico 

pessoas te ajudaram 

mas ninguém te ajudou mais do que o seu pai 


 in the end it is going to be just like that 

you are going to end up alone

having to take care of  all of your life 

and you just didnt wanted to be alone

but u are going to put yourself to bed

and clean your bed

and put the lavender in your pillow

you just didnt wanted to be alone

on the time he had free he came

but he still wants to stay with his cousins

and dance tango

are u ready to dance some tango?

asked him after my grandma was in the hospital 

it just for me doesn't makes sense 


from the day I received a bad news about my grandma

 I care about you

lets watch a comedy show 

so you will feel better

im here okay?

but dont make me feel bad 

but do you want to go on the boat trip?

this is the last day they are here

but im here for you 

stop beeing the victim

she taught you how to be strong 

and she is dying 

but he is here for you 

he is sorry for you 

but watch a comedy show?

or go to a boat?

just call me if you need anything

you will always be alone, that's a radical acceptance you gotta have 

oh, she is dying 

its normal, old people dye

everything is normal 

so fucking normal 

in the end you are always alone

im a cup 

with solid things on the button

you know 

what the fuck is this feeling

why am I fucking here 

in this place?

this just shows you how wrong eveything is

terça-feira, 19 de julho de 2022

 everyone is pretending

all the time 

beging kings of New York 

doing something small 

they chat 

like they are the cool kids 

but they are not happy 

they need to say that you were out of tune 

or out of the road

they say you are an amazing photographer 

and in the end u freeze when u see a guitar

how many traumas has been created in this time

two years

isnt that way too much?

two years wasted

trying to bee older 

and now you are

for how long?

what if in your lives u said more no?

only kids dont accept no

and he is one of them

you have yourself

u should know that

u had yourself on that hotel

and loneless will come 

it will stir up

and then calm down in the surface

it will calm down

sexta-feira, 8 de julho de 2022

 what about bad sex?

you simply hate when he touches you

what do u feel?

you feel incomplete?

you wanna beat?

you say u will exchange photos for sessions?

and he stay silent

because he doesn't care

and he didnt play anything in 5 years

he says this is the best venue

but everyone that comes are just friends

and someone that plays with someone that is famous

and I know this 

this is good this is not

go fuck yourself

where are you?

what are u doing?

 you keep telling people how they are famous 

how some are good

how this is the best place in New York City 

And its not good 

How you know everyone

is this melee?

oh, yea! My friend played with Lady Gaga

that's my friend

what the hell

I presented him to sting 

how big are things in your life?

how important is the things you say that are important.


sábado, 30 de abril de 2022

 ela eh magia 

circo 

mallu magalhaes e cicero 

coisa boa 

de gente indie 

fogo de pop 

e alegria de criança