I am feeling grief. Im feeling deep feelings that make me tired. Im feeling lonely. Im feeling transformation. And I feel myself in the middle of the thunder. My body hurts, my breath is heavy. I try to reconnect and use candles. Maybe I should speak in my own language. 

You know what I think its funny? How men dont like us. Us being witches, us being fire, us talking what is wrong, ur burning what is not good. Im here for the change, and I know I will get a job. As long as I forget those submissive feelings from that old place. That bar. I know it has been intense. but I know things will get better.

The candle is burning and I refuse to believe that I won't find my path home. I use photography for woman to make them feel powerful. to make them reconnect with themselves. its a psyquique opportunity and feeling that transforms both of us. Thats why most men dont do art. Because they think about it to make it. They want to make hard art. While we are the talented ones, and still hear: now you have learned your lesson.

I feel like im grieving. Who knows what will come next.