how can you even tell me you love me, if you dont even care about me? 

22nd of September 2025 

Im back home. Back to Porto Alegre. And it just feels so good to be here. To eat the food, to see my family, be around nice people. To be back home after so long. Some things are weird. I dont speak to David since a week. In fact we havent talked since I came here... He is so weak. I met this one German guy, he is 20 years old. He is nice and I practice German with him. He invited me to the embassy event. Today I also had an interview for a job in Goethe. For almost 4k real per month. It's hard, to leave berlin. But I just didnt feel good there. 

David said he always loved me. Insisted in beginning this. But he wanted comfort. He doesnt know how to deal with real feelings. another guy like the others.